They say that people usually fall in love 3 times in their life. Our first love is suppose to naive and young. It’s the stereotypic fairy tale love that we see in rom coms. We change ourselves to meet the needs of the other and to do what we are supposed to do instead of doing what we actually want to do. The second love is the one that hurts. It’s full of lies, betrayal, and tears but it’s supposed to make you a better person. You learn to love yourself and about who you are. The third love is the one that lasts. It’s a feeling that’s hard to explain and everything you thought you knew/wanted goes out the window because this person is better than anything you dreamed of.
Crystal is my third love. She is so perfect in so many ways. She pushes me to become a better person, to confront my problems instead of avoiding them. She teaches me how to talk like white people and phrase my words in a way that’s most beneficial. The part I like the most is that she always gives advice as a suggestion rather than an ultimatum. I don’t feel pressured to do what she wants and I know that she has my best interest at heart. She cares about me which is a strange feeling that I’ve missed. She knows what I want before I even know I want it. I wanted to get a new card holder for a long time because I don’t like the structure of my old card holder, but I’ve been putting it off for like 2 years? Guess what? we got card holders this week. How did she know? I also wanted mcdonalds a lot which she lets me get but not too much so sometimes she will say no. I really appreciate that in a weird way because I know she cares about my health. ugh I’m falling so hard for this girl but she doesn’t want to put labels on our relationship. But I’m ok with it because I just want her in my life. We’re almost at Penn station so I gotta stop writing. She’s sitting right next to me and about to wake up. Every time I look at her, I just can’t get over how amazing and beautiful she is. She doesn’t think she will be a good girlfriend or whatever, but she is wrong and I wish I could show her what she means to me because I don’t think words can describe it.
She plays piano like really really well. She is good with tech and knew not to click the first Google search link that is an ad. God she is so awesome