I think I’m falling for her and I’m at the point where it will hurt if I lose her. I wish she would accept me. She clearly likes me and we’re happy when we’re together, but there is something holding her back from committing completely. If she isn’t sure now, will she ever be? I hate feeling like this. I don’t want to beg for someone to like me again. I don’t want to feel like I’m not good enough. I don’t want every happy moment to be overshadowed by the fact that she’s just testing me. Do I tell her everything I’m thinking about? I’m afraid to because I don’t want to lose her, I don’t want to appear weak. I’m so fucked up, why would anyone want to deal with this. Maybe I should let her go, I don’t want to ruin her life. She can definitely do better than me.
