I need to take a moment to come back to reality and reflect on what’s been going on with my life. It’s been a crazy week and one that I’m sure I’ll remember for a long time.
I never thought I was particularly good looking or talented, I’m not super muscular or rich. But all that changed after I met Crystal. Well, I’m not super muscular or rich yet but I’m working on it. She makes me feel invincible, she understands me, she cares about me. I’ve been spending time with her in Princeton, NJ this week. We’ve been living in a hotel together, working, eating dinner, other stuff. She plans everything, she gets me breakfast and dinner, she checks in on me to make sure I’m ok, she’s keeps it real which I really appreciate because she wants to be as efficient as possible but also because she’s a big softie on the inside. I feel like I died and went to heaven. Is any of this real?
I like her but she doesn’t know if she likes me (although her actions say otherwise). I’m afraid to get hurt but I don’t want to hold my feelings and pretend to be something I’m not. I’m happy right now and I’m just going to enjoy it. I may view myself a certain way but she could see me in a completely different light so I should stop thinking “I’m not good enough” or “She won’t like me if I don’t do this.” If someone likes you, they like you for all of you and none of that shit should matter. Thanks Crystal, for showing me who you are and for bringing out a side of me that I thought I lost.