A few days ago I got super depressed after I found out Em had a boyfriend. A lot of emotions, a lot of crying, a lot of not sleeping. The weird thing is that I didn’t care she had a boyfriend because I just started thinking about Sam a lot and a lot of memories came back. I couldn’t stop thinking about her and I laid in bed intermittently crying to myself from midnight to 7AM. I don’t know why I still miss her so much. I didn’t do anything though, which I think is good. I just got up the next day and pretended like nothing happened. However, on the inside I was super motivated to get my shit together. I know what I have to do and what I want. I also put some work into it already which I’ve been lowkey proud of myself for. Let me just write it down here so I can organize my thoughts.
I found this in my Google Drive. I wrote it in 2014.
The Road to Success
By: Andy Guo
- Be meticulous in everything you do, a little autism and OCD can go a long way. Pretend you are genius prodigy (ex. Sherlock Holmes or Rain Man)
- Work out your body as well as your mind. I like to get naked and do abs while learning GRE words in between reps.
- Hygiene is important. A clean person personifies an intellectual and tireless work ethic.
- Always be eager to learn new things, no matter how insignificant. It can be used to pick up chicks or keep conversations from getting awkward with small talk.
- Grimmy gangsta rap is appropriate for all age, gender, race, and occasion.
Most of those habits stuck with me and I think it made me a better person. I think it’s time for a 2022 update to that list though.
- You don’t have to know everything and not everything has to be perfect. You’ll tire yourself out trying to make everything perfect and knowing everything can be pretty lonely. Sometimes your shitty work is already perfect and you don’t need to reinvent the wheel. Sometimes it’s better to get a task done so you can enjoy your life.
- You should still workout even if it’s just a little bit and you suck at it.
- Clean your room, your mind, and your body. Try not to be lazy about it.
- Don’t forget you have a good heart. It can be easy to forget when people hurt you or take advantage of you, but do your best to always do the right thing; I think it’s your defining characteristic.
- You can’t change the past and you don’t know what is going to happen in the future, so enjoy the present and be happy.
- Grimmy gangsta rap is still appropriate for all occasions.