I’m thinking about her again. I’m on the train going home from the city and the feeling hits me suddenly like I can’t breath and theirs a sinking feeling in my stomach. I lose all my motivation and feel like I’m a useless piece of shit. I close my eyes and try to shake off this feeling, desperately trying to think about something else but it’s not easy and most of the time I can’t do it. I don’t know why it still hurts so much
Andy, I wish you didn’t feel like this. You deserve to be happy.