dear god,
i know i’ve been asking a lot lately. I know you only help those who help themselves. I know that sometimes you don’t always grant us what we need because it is not part of your plan. But please, i don’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t want to hurt anymore. i don’t even want to be happy, i just want to be myself again. I want to thank you for what you have given me so far, and I appreciate it very much. I don’t want to be selfish and ask for too much so I understand if you don’t grant me this…I just want the knowledge to know what to do to get my life back on track. I am not strong, and i don’t really have anyone to help me so if there was anytime in my life that i needed help, it would be now. I hope you know what you are doing God. I don’t know why you made me such a nice person. If i was more of a jerk i wouldn’t feel this hurt right now. I hope this all leads to something greater. But even if it doesn’t, i know that it is not your obligation to grant miracles for me. I carve my own destiny i choose the roads to walk, i should be the change that i want to be. give me strength lord.
andy