Sometimes when all is lost, when you are at your lowest, there is no where to go but up. These past few days have been life changing. It might not be such a big deal, but I feel like I’ve transcended into another person, or at least another mindset. After losing her, I literally felt like my life was over. I had nothing to work towards, to look forward too. True, I was very dependent on her, I was very single minded and had no ambition outside snailing towards becoming a PA. Everything changed when I got my acceptance to Columbia University. How I got in will always be a mystery to me. My GPA wasn’t that high, my resume sucked balls, but I think my statement of purpose was my ace in the hole. I put my heart into that essay, and I think the years of writing stupid short stories also paid off in helping me write coherent and sort of well organized sentences. When I read my acceptance letter, I felt like so many things were possible. Suddenly I had a purpose in life again, and I knew that this was gods way of showing me a sign. I always knew he had a purpose behind his madness. Through the weeks of misery, I emerged new and improve and ready to prove those that let me down wrong. This entry is a reminder to myself not to slack off. There will be countless times throughout the school year where I will want to be lazy and put things off til the next day, but don’t do that. If you can do it now, do it! Force yourself to finish what you have to do, no matter how big or small it may be. Don’t let this opportunity slip by.
There were some people that really helped me through my time of need and I will never forget how much you care about me.
Lang [fuck you]
Sunkyu
Jared
Canny
Jess
Eunice [fuck you]
Additionally, be happy, make yourself better, or she wins.
