Expected vs. Reality

I’ve been going to school and living in my apartment for about a week now and I can’t say it is everything I expected. I use to think that the city was full of excitement and fun things to see, everyday would be different and new. Sadly it is none of those things. I don’t know why but all I feel is loneliness lately. School is ok and everything, I don’t have that much work yet, so when I come home it gets REALLY sad. I don’t really know what I want or what I expect but living by myself kind of sucks. The highlight of my week was going out to buy a small cup of microwavable ravioli and it was on sale, so i bought 2. Why do i feel like my life is so sad. I truly don’t have anyone in my life anymore, and the proof is right in front of me. What would I have done before? Why do I still think about her if I thought I was over her. I really hope things pick up, but I’m not asking it to. If I live like this for the next year, I think I would be ok with it. After all, I am here solely to go to school. Being happy doesn’t matter right now, only school does.


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