I think somewhere along the relationship, I forgot who I was. I started to do everything for her and slowly forgot to do the things that made me happy. Things like writing in this blog. It’s been so long that I don’t even know how to write anymore. I feel like my writing has gotten a lot worse. Thats one thing I want to work on. I want to write better and not spend so much time thinking about what to write. I often spend a ridiculous amount of time trying to find the perfect words to make the perfect sentence. I’m done feeling sorry for myself and I’m done being a pathetic piece of shit that she made me into. I am better than that. I use to be so fucking awesome before and I want to be that person again. I’m going to learn to love myself and find the person I was 5 years ago. I am more amazing than I think I am.
