It’s pretty late. I can’t really sleep. I keep thinking about kelsey. Gay as it may, i’m still a little confused as to what we are, relationship-wise. Should i pursue this? i’ve never liked her as much as i do now til tonight. I mean, it was pretty sweet. I’ve never felt so glad to be ditched before. i’ll write down what happened so that i can remember in a few years.
So i’m hanging out with Chris and robb. We’re bored and we wanted to hang out and i don’t know where Cornwall came from but it did and so i asked kelsey if she wanted to hang out. We arrive at cornwall and we needed to kill time til she arrived. Now, this was really unexpected…kinda like a messenger from god. This guy comes out of nowhere and asks us if we wanted to be in his independent film. I didn’t really know what it was about but i always love being filmed. He said to meet him at the coffee shop in an hour. Anyway, we met up with kelsey and she didn’t really talk much. It was weird cause we would walk in a group and she would just lag behind. Anyway, we get to a pond and just hang out there for a few minutes then we split up to look for the coffee shop cause we have no idea where it is. Mad props to robb for doing this. Anyway, i’m just walking around with kelsey. Honestly, i thought it would be really gay and shit. Like i would run out of topics to talk about and it would be quiet and akward. But it was fine. We talked and talked, she opened up to me, and things felt just right. I said “Hey, my hands are cold, can you hold them?” Now, this is really cool. The gestures that she motioned were all like “Hell ya!” So i grabbed it and it was cool.
Many of you may think is is gay but i don’t know, i really enjoy these little things. It’s something i don’t think i can do with any girl in O’neil. I don’t really know why. I don’t really care if i hook up with her or not, i’d like to but it’s not top priority.