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    What the fuck? 18 views today. who the fuck has been looking at my shit.

    I think i’m done. hanging out is pretty boring now. I’m just going to get ready to go to college. cya later everyone.

    You know when everything sucks and something goes completely wrong but then out of no where someone does something really cool and you just can’t help but feel vitalized with happiness. Wow, today was a good day.

    Today was a good day. I don’t say that often but it was a good day. everything i needed. My best friend, my gay friend, the love of my life, and some people i never hang out with. I’m glad. i would not mind a repeat tomorrow. I’d explain what happened but i’m really tired.

    Everyday has been an Okay day. nothing too exciting but nothing too boring either. Although i will admit that i thought the return of robb or kelsey would have been something more grand. But it’s still the same. I think it’s because i didn’t do anything at all the week before. it’s fine. i’m sure it’ll get better.

    You know, i think everyone should have that one person they would really like to get with. just something to look forward to. it really makes all the difference in the world, you’ll start doing things differently and it will change you. I think at one point of my life i didn’t like anyone, and it was pretty boring. At least if you like someone your friends will pick on you about it, and it’s cool. I’m sure you would do the same thing it was your friend. It’s weird, people change other people. well, they change me at least. I think i’m a little more carefree now. i don’t really care about stuff anymore. Actually the only thing i care about is going to binghamton right now. #1 Priority.

    now i don’t want to be gay, and look back on this 2 years from now and realize how much of a bitch i was. cause i’m not, actually maybe i am….but just a little. i am charlie. i’m cool. regardless, the thing is i was seriously totally over her 100%. Til someone convinced me to pursue it some more and then she started to text me. and from there shit hit the fan all over again. so i’m back where i started. i’m a mess but i’ve learned to coupe with it and i swear to put my bros first. cause dem hoes get you no where. I’ve got it haha!

    Robb and Kelsey come back today. Yay!

This week has gone by very slowly. I’m beginning to write more in my xanga due to my relentless loneliness. I have no idea where Will is anymore and i’m not to sure if i have any other friends. Normally i don’t like contacting people first (this includes AIM and text messaging). In my mind i always think that the person doesn’t want to talk to me and if i contact them, they will think i’m annoying. I always like other people contacting me first. they can text or IM me whenever and i am always willing to talk. and you know what? i have no idea where i was going with that. Regardless, I’m the only one working on the party basement. I’m still not sure what else it needs but i’d like to have some people hang out in it soon. Can’t wait for robb and kelsey to come back so we can hang out. my two most favorite people in the world. yay!

I spent a lot of time on youtube today. i thought this was really funny. maybe you do to.

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I haven’t really listened to any jacks mannequin lately. I went on there website today and to my surprise they’re coming out with a new album. I’m looking forward to it. hopefully there will be some nice tunes to dull me down during my stay at albany. I also looked up some videos on youtube about andrew mcmahon and i totally forgot what a cool guy he is. It’s interesting. Few years ago i tried to be a lot like him, now i’m just me. I’m not sure which is better but i think ultimately i’d like to know a lot of cool people and extract little bits of redeeming qualities for each of them and possibly create a better me.

I wish other people could start a blog and write in it from time to time. Writing is really fun. It’s putting down what your mind is thinking. All the time i feel like i’m the only one writing and no one ever reads its. but at the same time, if the wrong person reads it then i am in big trouble. Regardless, i encourage all of you to get a blog. xanga is great.

i need a new layout…

It’s another one of those nights again…

    I had an idea for a topic i was going to have a big discussion about here but now i forgot it. i hope it comes back to me. I will continue to write while i try to remember.

    I had my Albany orientation on Monday. It lasted till Tuesday and i stayed there overnight. The entire experience was overall informative and fun. My Orientation Advisor (OA) was very awesome and my group was probably the most fun group there. The beginning of the program was really boring. we had a lot of meetings about the same stuff. i didn’t really care for it so i slept through most of them. When all the meetings were over and we all went back to our dorms, the party started. We played “Apples to Apples.” I’ve never played this game before but it is a very sweet game (no pun intended). We played it and other people from other floors started to join in on the fun. This chick from no where sat next to me and at first i didn’t really care for her but in my mind i thought to myself “wow, she’s hot.” So we’re playing apples to apples and i’m making all these really gay jokes(which i thought were gold). She’s the only one that laughs, i think it’s because no one else heard me. Then i quit the game and started talking to this chick. I started rapping cause i was wanted to and she was all like “oooh your so cool and cute.” She asked me to serenade her so i asked some dude to play the guitar and he did. He played “hey there delilah.” but i replaced it with jamie. i eventually showed her the list and everyone else saw it too. the entire rec area of people rallied up and was like “yo, help him finish the list and do #7.” She had no objections so we went into a room and made out.

    This bitch was a slut. She ruined it for me. I don’t make out with much chicks, so when i do it’s like the coolest thing in the world for me. I just met this bitch and within an hour we’re making out. Not that i’m ungrateful, but anyone could have made out with her. I feel like one of those assholes that hook up with tons and tons of chicks and have no respect for any of them. Remember Colby Smidt? He was a really hot guy in school but he was really christian and never really drank or hooked up with chicks for fun. I give him props for being a good guy, given he was a pretty big loser that didn’t do anything cool. I don’t really know where i’m going with this. I think it’s cause i don’t like growing up and i always want to stay in that kid-like state of mind. cause when i was a kid, making out with a chick was the most G thing i could do. Now i can make out with anyone, Not really but figuratively.

    So i’m 100% over kelsey, right? Then out of no where my friends (robb) are like “dude, would you take her last name if you two got married?” or “You two are made for each other, your both weird.” I would never ever take her last name. Not that it’s not cool but what kind of bitch man takes the name of the chick, it just makes no sense. And yes, she is very weird which is great cause it makes me look normal. thats aside from the points. I’m over her and now all this shit is starting all over again. And to make it worst, she texts me for fun. given it was only once but seriously, my mental and emotional elements can’t take this shit anymore. fuck, i don’t even know what the hell is going on.

    It’s so late. and i’m getting delirious. This is a long ass entry. holy shit.

I think my most philosophical and internal thoughts come out late at night. Usually when i’m lying in bed thinking. It prevents me from sleeping so in hopes to cure this curse i blog it up. Not sure why.

So a few minutes before, i was pondering over thoughts about my life. And i came to a realization that i haven’t really discovered the world. I live in a small town and i know a few people from across the river and over the mountain. thats it. In college there will be people from all over the place. I’m not sure how i’m going to react to it. It’s an environment i haven’t really touched upon. In a sense, it’s scary, but at the same time i’m also curious to see what it’s like. I have this idea of what college is like. Full Assholes with really hot girlfriends drinking all the time. I’m not really into that. I prefer clean fun with a but of over the top pranks here and there. I don’t know really know.

My life here in highland falls is quickly diminishing. Well, my social life at least. I realized today that i have no friends. I’m the annoying guy that always text people to hang out but they don’t necessarily want to hang out with me. I’m a bother to everyone. Plus when i do, i end up spending a lot of money. i am so dumb. I hate my fishbowl life.

on a lighter note, “The Dark Knight” was a pretty good movie. It was long, but it definitely was worth seeing it by myself. sweet…..i’m a fucking loser.